Magick

It was all around me when I first moved here. People around me turned me onto Crowley, Blavatsky, Gurdjieff, etc. I was told if you wear this charm or use these herbs or recite this incantation or do this ritual you'll achieve this purpose. Many even spoke of a "law of attraction," wherein if you just feel good and think happy thoughts, you'll attract more of the same. I've taken three "Prosperity" classes, and yet I'm more destitute than ever. I'm drowning in credit card debt and my bank account is overdrawn. The bills have stacked up, and I can't keep my head afloat. You'd think I'd figure it out long ago, but I was just too naive. I thought, "If I just keep believing, it'll happen for me." But if there's any magick going on with me, it's a curse. It's such a romantic idea to think that I could draw upon esoteric cures for what ails me here in the physical world. Bath salts, crystals, herbs, incantations, invocations, dream boards...where the hell have they gotten me? I guess I just need to believe in something, but I don't know what the hell to believe in anymore.