Since I came to Portland, I've been immersed in a mish-mash of Eastern religion and New Age spirituality. I'm certainly enough of a neophile to enjoy it, but deep down, I never fully felt like I fit in with it. The spiritual journey I've been on for the past few years began with an entheogen-induced vision of Christ. Since then, even after going to kirtans, decorating my apartment with various idols, learning mudras and mantras, being initiated into a New Age organization(though they shun that label), taking kundalini yoga, and dabbling in magick, all along I've still identified myself primarily as a Christian. I've slowly found myself becoming less interested in all that other stuff, and focusing primarily on my relationship with Christ. A couple weeks ago, for the first time ever, I went to church of my own volition(I decided not to return when I saw how few people there were who were close to my age). A week ago, I bought a rosary, and have been praying on it regularly. I haven't completely given up on the New Age stuff. I'm still into astrology and Tarot, or getting readings from psychics(SOME of whom seem to know what they're talking about), and I'm still dedicated to studying the holy Kabbalah. But I've become less focused the magical, and more on the mystical. I guess my real dilemma is that I don't quite feel comfortable in any spiritual community, whether New Age or Christian. I'm still looking for my sangha.